3.30.14

一转眼 三月剩下了最后的一天
很快第四个月就要来了
很快，我也已经过了半个学期

我感觉不到实感 时间流逝的实感。。

这两个月我真的很努力
努力把自己分内的事情完成
努力学会忍让
我也觉得自己进步了少许

可是我也承认 我依然走不出
也许你们会觉得不可思议
而我也觉得自己非常不可思议
非常 害怕面对这样的自己

曾经我非常喜欢外出
不在乎是不是一人
现在如果没有伴 我不敢一人出去
我不敢 我也不想
所以我把注意力放在学业上
可是 真的很累 
眼泪 总是不由自主地流下
我心疼自己过得那么幸苦
如果从来
我 不会把自己放的这么低
不要 ，再做自以为是的伟人

以前每天都会出现

后来变成了一个礼拜两三次

慢慢变成两个礼拜出现一次

再过久一点就会是一个月一次

然后3 4 个月 然后就慢慢成为了过去

这就是我的现实

没关系 

到头来 人都是一样的…

보고싶어서

근대 난 참아해다...

너 위해서 

난 위해고

괜찮다 다괜찮나거야.. :)

79.

病

就病一场吧

要病不病的感觉更幸苦

我好想睡个好觉

到底…

是我老了, 还是累了…

我好想回家。

70

When days hit 100.

I will be all fine.

Is it possible?

...

Is so busy

And I'm really tired

Physically and mentally

I told myself, is fine, busy and I'll be fine.

And yes, I got better than 3 months ago...

I'd used 3 months to stop crying, 

and yet, 3 more months I'll be leaving

I don't mind I was messed up those 3 months

But I hoped the next 3 months could be the sunshine to me, again.

...

I miss you.

Those skies were beautiful

But I also miss my old self 

Those day when I enjoyed life 

I don't know how long more I will be really fine, 

But I hope by the time I leave,

Everything can just be let go with a smile, 

Let go with another memory to keep.

I'm still curious. But I won't show.

Cause I know, 

You are the same, as me.

“偷偷的关心”

“偷偷的在意”

“偷偷的回忆”

“偷偷的演戏”

“偷偷的注意”

还有，静静的发呆

有时太累了 

不想面对现实 

就这些 能让着我吧…

悄悄的 让我乱想吧…

我今天，真的很累。

63.

3 months gone.

3 more months left.

Just let it be. 

I'll just let my heart go crazy

In this last 3 months to be.

*Hi , hello, and bye :)