以前每天都会出现

后来变成了一个礼拜两三次

慢慢变成两个礼拜出现一次

再过久一点就会是一个月一次

然后3 4 个月 然后就慢慢成为了过去

这就是我的现实

没关系 

到头来 人都是一样的…

보고싶어서

근대 난 참아해다...

너 위해서 

난 위해고

괜찮다 다괜찮나거야.. :)

79.

病

就病一场吧

要病不病的感觉更幸苦

我好想睡个好觉

到底…

是我老了, 还是累了…

我好想回家。

70

When days hit 100.

I will be all fine.

Is it possible?

...

Is so busy

And I'm really tired

Physically and mentally

I told myself, is fine, busy and I'll be fine.

And yes, I got better than 3 months ago...

I'd used 3 months to stop crying, 

and yet, 3 more months I'll be leaving

I don't mind I was messed up those 3 months

But I hoped the next 3 months could be the sunshine to me, again.

...

I miss you.

Those skies were beautiful

But I also miss my old self 

Those day when I enjoyed life 

I don't know how long more I will be really fine, 

But I hope by the time I leave,

Everything can just be let go with a smile, 

Let go with another memory to keep.

I'm still curious. But I won't show.

Cause I know, 

You are the same, as me.

“偷偷的关心”

“偷偷的在意”

“偷偷的回忆”

“偷偷的演戏”

“偷偷的注意”

还有，静静的发呆

有时太累了 

不想面对现实 

就这些 能让着我吧…

悄悄的 让我乱想吧…

我今天，真的很累。

63.

3 months gone.

3 more months left.

Just let it be. 

I'll just let my heart go crazy

In this last 3 months to be.

*Hi , hello, and bye :)

58.

Ups and downs recently.
I dont understand me
They dont understand me
and I still. Not so understand you.

Haha.
But never mind.
I dont intend to change anything
I'll just stay this way
and you just stay your way
Do not crossover.

I cut off all channels regarding you and I do regret, but well, it cannot be undo, and that's what I hope for, 
You can be free, and I can be free,
from those sweet dreams and nightmares you'd given to me, and I'd given to you perhaps...

I don't say what passed is past.
Because it's still a scar that yet to recover
Because of you, and because of myself.
I feel sorry always, to you and to others around me
I'm trying hard not to disclose myself, but I'm sorry that I'm still that weak
But i will try again, and I must try again, for you and for myself, myself.

The answer that you had given me, I got it. And I'll never make you answer me anymore..

because its hurting my heart and my pride.

[Everything happens for some reasons perhaps.
Hope that we understand those reasons God had wanted us to know, wanted you to know.]

Goodnight.